Sunday, June 17, 2012

Wow. So much has changed since my last post. I had really hoped to journal my thoughts and emotions here while I was "changing". I guess I'm not a girl that will stick with blogging, but will give it a luke-warm go.
Well, the biggest change is that I resigned from my teaching job a few weeks ago. With so much stress and the eternally long hours for 9 months at a time, I figured it just wasn't worth it. Life is too short to feel that miserable. At one time, I felt like teaching was my God-given vocation in life. Many years, I felt good about it and really had fun with it. The last few years I began to dread it and really felt bitter about it. I still love kids (most of them) and love the interaction of teaching, but not under the circumstances of 30+ kids in a room, strict curriculum that must be followed, undependable administration, and hovering parents. I asked God for signs and He gave them. It was my time to go.

So, what do I do now? God holds the answer! I have no idea where my path will go. For now, I am doing my usual summer things of organizing, cleaning, gardening and reading. Summer naps are good too. I've been doing a lot of praying too. God knows that I need Him to show me the way.

Enough for now. Maybe when I come back in another 6 months, I'll be able to say where that path led me.

Sunday, Feb. 26 2012

OK, so it's been since forever that I was last here. I thought I'd like blogging, but I guess I don't really. Who reads this? nobody but me. Maybe I need to ramp it up a bit and show some naked photos or something. That'll sure get folks excited! Or sick.

I have made a major decision in the past few weeks. I have decided to retire from teaching. It has become such a disheartening profession. Such lack of respect, such hard work and very little thanks. I've put my heart and sole into this career and my reward is stabs at my heart from parents and kids. I've had it and don't want to be abused anymore. I've asked God many times in the last few years what He wants me to do with my life, as I felt that teaching was no longer my path in life. I truly feel that God has spoken to me and has told me to leave this catastophic profession. I don't know what I'll do, but I'll search it out. I need to be productive and appreciated in whatever I do. Shit....doesn't everyone want that? I'm no different. I just want to be treated as a human being and not be stabbed in the back.

So, while I'm out of a job this summer, I'm planning on getting back in shape! My weight has ballooned and I'm lazy as shit. I need to get up off this couch and get exercise, cook healthier meals and expect to live a longer, active lifestyle. That's my plan and I'm sticking to it!

Is anyone out there? Are you reading this? Leave a comment and let me know, OK? Big things are about to happen for this girl. Be a witness!