Monday, May 16, 2011

Monday, May 16th

What's on my mind? Mainly, it's getting this school year over with...only 12 more days. 12 more days of hard work. Ah, this too shall pass.

I like to eat. I hate to exercise. What's that get ya? Weight overload, that's what. I'm depressed knowing what I've done to myself. It's time to get real about this and face the music of eating healthier and exercising so I can look better, feel better and be healthy inside and out. I've got to find the motivation somewhere deep inside of me. It's in there. I've dug it out before and I can dig it out again. It's just that this time, it's lost down in me even deeper than before. If I keep talking/writing about it, it will surface, right? Stay tuned, I will beat this thing.

Before I turn 50.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mother's Day May 8, 2011

It was a beautiful day. I'm a lucky lady with 2 great kids...who have NO relationship with each other. Yeah, I know what you may be thinking...they have squabbles and disagreements, but really love each other. Nope, not in this case. They don't squabble, they don't disagree and they don't love each other. Their lives don't orbit each other's in any way whatsoever. In fact, they work hard to avoid each other. My only wish for Mother's Day was to have my kids sit down and have a conversation. I didn't even need to be present in the room. It didn't happen. Paul didn't even offer them the opportunity to bone up to it. So, I'm disappointed.

Well, on the brighter side, school will be out in less than a month! Now that's something to celebrate. This past year has been a rather good one, despite a few parent issues thrown in there intermittenly just to remind me that I'm not perfect in any way. I wish I weren't so sensitive to these issues and could let them roll off my back. I'll retire before I find this ability.

I baked a wonderfully delicious chocolate cake last night and frosted it this morning to celebrate both Mother's Day and my brother's 59th birthday. It is awesomely decadent and my body is sucking in calories with it just being in the same room. The recipe can be found here: http://www.handletheheat.com/2011/04/double-chocolate-cake-blog-birthday.html

I hope to be back here more often. I'm still thinking about my list of 50 Ways to Leave My 40's, which will start in a few weeks. I look forward to that! No, I don't look forward to being 50, just the path that leads to it with fun things to do.